June 2011
1 post
May 2011
8 posts
January 2011
2 posts
“if you are exactly what he is looking for, he should have no problem getting...”
"Sick Cycle Carousel"
There’s this guy that I have been crushing on for the longest time.
Just recently, I found out that he liked me too.
We’ve kissed and hugged, and kissed.
Neither of us had put a label on it. Until I couldn’t take it anymore and asked him what was going on. He said he liked me, no, nix that, he actually said he loved me. And then the next day, he wouldn’t even look at...
August 2010
6 posts
barely three days left and i haven’t started packing yet. haven’t even prepared the stuff i’m going to bring. sighs. my mind is in a clutter. where did my one month and a half go?
From today, until September 2nd, I promise to spend less time on the Internet.
And spend more of it with my daughter.
Because I have about two weeks before I leave her. And I’m going to have to make the most of it.
Why does it have to be so easy and comfortable talking with him?
Crap.
I’m getting carried away again.
One hour on Skype, and I’m all giggly and gooey-eyed again.
Crap!!!
having a baby changes everything.
including your menstrual cycle.
thank God feeding bottles were designed to withstand boiling heat, or else, all of my baby’s bottles would have melted after i over-sterilized them for at least one hour!
July 2010
18 posts
it’s official.
my flight is booked.
i held back tears when i did so.
thought about leaving my daughter over and over again.
heartbreaking.
worse, i’ll be stuck at the airport for nine hours to wait for my connecting flight.
sighs.
i hate leaving.
I’m weaning my baby off my boobs in favor of bottlefeeding.
I have to. Otherwise she’ll starve when I leave, if she doesn’t start getting used to not latching on me all the time.
It’s painful. Physically and emotionally.
My breasts feel as though rocks have been placed inside them, and I’m leaking from time to time. If I didn’t know any better I’d be...
One of my best friends and I were talking about how we are always drawn to losers.
And I thought, how is it that whenever a nice guy comes along, who practically offers me the world, it scares me away? I think back and realize that every relationship I have been in was out of something mutual, and instant, ala-whirlwind romance. Never did I hook up with anyone who was dead serious about his...
July 12, 2010 - After just four short months, I finally received the great news that I have been waiting and praying for.
My visa grant, which officially allows me to reside permanently in Australia. And which also means that I will be leaving the country soon. In fact, sooner than I hoped. Sadly, I will not be taking my daughter with me. Well, not yet. I wish I could though, but it would be too...
I like making lists. I think I’m neurotic that way. A list when I have to go somewhere. A list to remind me what to bring. A list of what to do. A list of what to buy. Usually according to order. Yes, I AM neurotic that way.
Anyway, there a few lists I will be writing soon.
The following being the first:
1. Call the Embassy courier.
2. Call the NSO hotline.
3. Contact a travelling...
“I’m for Team Edward.. except when Jacob is shirtless!”
“Because you’re hoping you’re wrong. And every time (s)he does...”
– Iris - The Holiday
of course my friends and family hate him for what he did to me. to us. i do too. it’s just that i couldn’t seem to stay mad at him.
June 2010
3 posts
after all this time, after all that he’s put me through, he still moves me. finding out things about him still makes my heart sink..
i no longer hope that he would come back for ME. but i was hoping there would still be a single thread holding on to the possibility that he will come back for my baby.
but i doubt it even more now. i don’t think that’s gonna happen either. so as...
Ok, so here are “fun” facts about me.
I’m 24, will be 25 in August. I have a baby girl who turns half a year this month. I’m single, by choice, and mostly because I got knocked up by one of the world’s biggest losers, who doesn’t have the balls to be a father. And no, I’m no longer bitter, I’m just giving due recognition to people who deserve it....